2007 has been a rollercoaster ride for me. I have faced new experiences that are totally different. It was so different that part of my life has changed. A lot of things happened in 2007, and it happened so fast that sometimes I could not catch up. A lot of good things and bad as well. But I'm happy it happened, because in one way I have matured over time.
My friends & I : Chilling at PH in second-quarter 2007
Chapter 1 : Calculated move ?
In definite truth all the events that has happened to me has never been so surprising. I never planned all these. All I simply expect is to have a better year than before. Previously I had a dead-end project in which I can't capitalize my potential, all efforts I have invested did not give returns I expected. It was demoralizing, and I was even more disappointed that I could not do anything to improve it. It was too technically difficult. All I had is just a blind drive hoping that it'll get better and seize any opportunity that comes along.
And all it needs is just a blind hope.
A new year comes along, and new and fresh things came at the same time. I have become more focused, more selective in whatever I'm involved in. Things at work and home remained the same, but a distant feeling in me sensed that it'll be different onwards. Now I just need a solid calculated target.
All these while I'm facing a lengthy battle in my finances. It's always a struggle every month trying to be optimistic to be financially savvy and at the same time trying to keep up with my tastes. It's more towards a mental battle because you have to save up to be free financially and at the same time trying to reward yourself for what it's all worth. Lust and logic always don't go along. Some times I lost, and some times I win. But what's more irony is that it always remains the same at the end of the year. But this time is going to be different, I thought. I'm sure it will.
After a long thought, I've came certain goals that I want to achieve at 2007. First, I'm going to bail out of my financial freedom, and secondly, I must purchase a property. Property ? Are you kidding me? Why not? All these while I have wasted for nothing and now it's time to capitalize what you've worth. And thirdly, I'm going to have a good career and a good car. Damn, sometimes I can be either be too optimistic or too conservative. But I must achieve this. Otherwise it's just going to be another wasteful year.
Indeed it happened. I didn't know all it requires is a vision and a drive to achieve what I want.
Chapter 2 : The first breakthrough
People always say that opportunities come when you least expect it. But when it comes, never ever hesitate to take it because chances are it'll never being offered again. That can never be so true for me. I've planted a seed of mindset in me in the beginning year that I should take whatever that comes in sight, and always keep an eye and ask for any new chances. I should take things differently. Do it differently. Change and modify my mode of work, how I do things. Everything.
It's easier said than done, I say to myself. Old habits die hard. It certainly did.
Indeed it is. A new battle has to be fought. I have to fight against myself. Am I crazy ?
Everyday is a tougher battle to fight. A lot of times I lose because I have no external motivation. What should I do ? I can't have any success if I'm do not have any support. Everybody is so stuffed to themselves in achieving their goals. I have no guidance. But wait. I see some development in my work. I can use this to channel my efforts. It's a distant effort, but who knows, let's see what I can do.
To shed some light, I'm working on a engineering project that does not have a credible reputation. It's a downright failure. It's difficult, and what's more difficult is that I have to shoulder this responsibility. I have to make it work. I got to. But I'm not technically qualified, so how the hell can I do this ? It'll take at least 2 years of god damn experience to do this ! Again my blind, my ridiculous motivation took me to undertake this assignment. I've always have this stupid drive in my mind to take whatever challenges that it sesems impossible. A lot of times it failed, however. This is because whatever I do, I push myself to the edge to deliver. All I have except talent . Talent is what I've missing because that what makes the impossible effortless. Honestly I have toned down my wild enthusiasm because of so many failures I've gone through. Opportunities came a few. Chances of success goes down. Sometimes I feel rather worthless because there's nothing I can do. It's just too difficult for me. But in one foolish way I cling on to this project because of no concrete reason.
Suddenly there was hope. Not a golden one, but a distant chance. Why not, I've thought. This could be my very last chance. I'm not letting this one go. Not ever. My preserverance paid off handsomely. It took me one month to be given an opportunity to work with the best people. The same project, but what the hell. This is my golden chance. I could never let this go. Technically I was overjoyed , and still is. The only challenge I foresee is whether I'm up to this challenge. Of course, by all means. Now it's my turn to deliver.
Chapter 3 : Entrance of the new me ?
At the certain extent, I've beginning to experience a rather new phase in myself. Quite a significant difference as compared to my life before. I've bought myself a property, done some engine exchange to my car and things at work at the same time.
I never thought this would happen so fast. What a change. But I'm happy with it in one way.
I've termed this as an upgrade of my life. It feels so good. I just don't know how to quantify it. But a newer set of constraints I have to face onwards. Nevermind, it's always going to like that. That's okay.
Since all things happened exactly at the same time, my character and my thinking has been modified as well. I see things in a lot longer term, I've become more calm, less stressful, and a bit more focused in what I do .
Nevertheless, I've got to bear in mind that I shall not be carried away in these things. Syok sendiri is okay, but too much of it is masturbation. Too much indulgence can be a bad thing.
A new entrance in my life ? I agree to that. But this is just the beginning. I've also experienced some bad encounters lately, but maybe I'll elaborate that later. In overall, I can just say it's pretty a changing year. 2008 here I come .
I'll post in some new pics along the way.
My friends & I : Chilling at PH in second-quarter 2007Chapter 1 : Calculated move ?
In definite truth all the events that has happened to me has never been so surprising. I never planned all these. All I simply expect is to have a better year than before. Previously I had a dead-end project in which I can't capitalize my potential, all efforts I have invested did not give returns I expected. It was demoralizing, and I was even more disappointed that I could not do anything to improve it. It was too technically difficult. All I had is just a blind drive hoping that it'll get better and seize any opportunity that comes along.
And all it needs is just a blind hope.
A new year comes along, and new and fresh things came at the same time. I have become more focused, more selective in whatever I'm involved in. Things at work and home remained the same, but a distant feeling in me sensed that it'll be different onwards. Now I just need a solid calculated target.
All these while I'm facing a lengthy battle in my finances. It's always a struggle every month trying to be optimistic to be financially savvy and at the same time trying to keep up with my tastes. It's more towards a mental battle because you have to save up to be free financially and at the same time trying to reward yourself for what it's all worth. Lust and logic always don't go along. Some times I lost, and some times I win. But what's more irony is that it always remains the same at the end of the year. But this time is going to be different, I thought. I'm sure it will.
After a long thought, I've came certain goals that I want to achieve at 2007. First, I'm going to bail out of my financial freedom, and secondly, I must purchase a property. Property ? Are you kidding me? Why not? All these while I have wasted for nothing and now it's time to capitalize what you've worth. And thirdly, I'm going to have a good career and a good car. Damn, sometimes I can be either be too optimistic or too conservative. But I must achieve this. Otherwise it's just going to be another wasteful year.
Indeed it happened. I didn't know all it requires is a vision and a drive to achieve what I want.
Chapter 2 : The first breakthrough
People always say that opportunities come when you least expect it. But when it comes, never ever hesitate to take it because chances are it'll never being offered again. That can never be so true for me. I've planted a seed of mindset in me in the beginning year that I should take whatever that comes in sight, and always keep an eye and ask for any new chances. I should take things differently. Do it differently. Change and modify my mode of work, how I do things. Everything.
It's easier said than done, I say to myself. Old habits die hard. It certainly did.
Indeed it is. A new battle has to be fought. I have to fight against myself. Am I crazy ?
Everyday is a tougher battle to fight. A lot of times I lose because I have no external motivation. What should I do ? I can't have any success if I'm do not have any support. Everybody is so stuffed to themselves in achieving their goals. I have no guidance. But wait. I see some development in my work. I can use this to channel my efforts. It's a distant effort, but who knows, let's see what I can do.
To shed some light, I'm working on a engineering project that does not have a credible reputation. It's a downright failure. It's difficult, and what's more difficult is that I have to shoulder this responsibility. I have to make it work. I got to. But I'm not technically qualified, so how the hell can I do this ? It'll take at least 2 years of god damn experience to do this ! Again my blind, my ridiculous motivation took me to undertake this assignment. I've always have this stupid drive in my mind to take whatever challenges that it sesems impossible. A lot of times it failed, however. This is because whatever I do, I push myself to the edge to deliver. All I have except talent . Talent is what I've missing because that what makes the impossible effortless. Honestly I have toned down my wild enthusiasm because of so many failures I've gone through. Opportunities came a few. Chances of success goes down. Sometimes I feel rather worthless because there's nothing I can do. It's just too difficult for me. But in one foolish way I cling on to this project because of no concrete reason.
Suddenly there was hope. Not a golden one, but a distant chance. Why not, I've thought. This could be my very last chance. I'm not letting this one go. Not ever. My preserverance paid off handsomely. It took me one month to be given an opportunity to work with the best people. The same project, but what the hell. This is my golden chance. I could never let this go. Technically I was overjoyed , and still is. The only challenge I foresee is whether I'm up to this challenge. Of course, by all means. Now it's my turn to deliver.
Chapter 3 : Entrance of the new me ?
At the certain extent, I've beginning to experience a rather new phase in myself. Quite a significant difference as compared to my life before. I've bought myself a property, done some engine exchange to my car and things at work at the same time.
I never thought this would happen so fast. What a change. But I'm happy with it in one way.
I've termed this as an upgrade of my life. It feels so good. I just don't know how to quantify it. But a newer set of constraints I have to face onwards. Nevermind, it's always going to like that. That's okay.
Since all things happened exactly at the same time, my character and my thinking has been modified as well. I see things in a lot longer term, I've become more calm, less stressful, and a bit more focused in what I do .
Nevertheless, I've got to bear in mind that I shall not be carried away in these things. Syok sendiri is okay, but too much of it is masturbation. Too much indulgence can be a bad thing.
A new entrance in my life ? I agree to that. But this is just the beginning. I've also experienced some bad encounters lately, but maybe I'll elaborate that later. In overall, I can just say it's pretty a changing year. 2008 here I come .
I'll post in some new pics along the way.
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